Well back at skool and i am not to happy to be back as i have just found out that alex is friends with jennifer and well jen was one of my most important firends and when i got with alex our friendship broke everyone said that she wanted my man but i believed her and she took out on me what everyone else and my sisters said to her and now she really does not like me and no matter how hard i have tryed to get to be best friends again she decline all the time so our friendship broke when i got a boyfriend and now she is be friending him and to be honest that is not a big comfort zone for me and i don't know what to do. next problem my frien dfor 10 years told me last night on the phone that alex raelly wants sum(sex) but the problem is i am so confussed i don't know if that is all he wants from me as my family and friends say that is all he wants but when i ask him and he says to me he doesn't i believe him but then i listen to all this other shit he is going to leave me and i don't want to lose him as he means the world to me  but i feel no one wants us to be together heres an example well i am having issues and he is all i want but i am not aloud to see him only at skool but we are kinda distant at skool and i get so angry and upset when i see him with other females as i hardly see him well he keeps saying to me just break up with me an dget it over with so i have a strong feeling we are going to break up after 8 months today and i am so scared of losing him but if he wants to go nothing i can do about it. next issue is kinda  a family thing so yeah i just feel so deprest and i am sick of all this shit i have had enough well i need to end this now as i have to head home for my fathers birthday well blog ya l8er.

Luv ga xoxo 

p.s         & nbsp;  8 months today have been with Alex "YAY"